Holland out, Italy in
She’s moving to Italy when she finishes school for 2 reasons:
1) Its too cold in Holland this time of year.
2) When J the boyf moves to the US, it will be easier for him to visit her and he likes pizza.
Strange the way her mind works. I felt sorry for her yesterday, I know it appears that I do nothing but give out about her, but seriously. Herself and her best mate D have the strangest relationship. Over the christmas for example, it appeared that D txted her whenever she had nothing better to do and the kid soon copped on to this and wasn’t impressed. So when D texted the next time, the kid ignored her. Cue new best friend when the kid started back on Monday. With matching necklaces. They’re best mates now. Talk about being dumped faster then a hot potato. I mean, the kid has difficulty sometimes making mates, like good mates.
She reminds me of K, the sister in Holland when she was in secondary school. I’m not sure what the feeling is, but the kid is insisting she wants to be different and doesn’t want any friends whilst all the time just wanting to fit in. K was different in that she wanted to have friends I think, but some of the people she befriended weren’t the most trustworthy. That said, I can hardly talk. I was as anti-social as they come in school!
So last night, the kid was going on about how cool it was that she was a loner and stuff but I knew she was putting on a brave face. When I finally hit the sack, I forgot to check had she taken her meds and when I came back out to her she was sitting on the PC, with death metal stuff blaring in her ears. When she finally heard me calling to her, she muttered something and just seemed down in herself. She was going on about voices in her head. I never know whether to take this seriously or not so I just advised her to talk to her counseller about it when she sees her next. Mammy2 then came out and did her usual smother the kid with hugs whilst poking her and ruffling her hair. It seemed to work, she cheered up a bit. Sometimes, she makes it so hard on herself. Not wanting anyone , yet at the same time feeling lonely.
I’m sure as fantastic as we are, we’re not the best of company and we’re BORING(said in a dragged out teenage voice) most of the time. I hope herself and D sort it out as it would be good for her to have some sort of close friend whilst in school even to just pass the day with. She gets on well with the other girls but never mentions hanging with them or bringing them home. I think she’s still trying to get over the whole they’re scangers and I can’t possibly hang with them mindset. The boyf is up tonight. He’s supposedly having a rough time of it as his band is breaking up. One of the members of his band is going on hunger strike because his parents have taken his guitar away from him and won’t give it back until his grades improve. As with most stories the kid tells us, I am unsure how much of it is true. Just last week D, the ex-best friend’s mother was moving to England. Just like that. Up and leaving her 16 year old daughter. Again, not sure what to believe.
I can’t remember much of my teenage years, but I do know they positvely pale in comparsion to the kids!
